Just when you think the world couldn’t be more chaotic, hurricanes and wildfires are brought to the scene. Add this to an already unstable and divided political stage, whose leaders are dabbling with ideas like nuclear war, and suddenly everything you know begins to feel a bit out of control– the sky is full of smoke and there’s a whiff of apocalypse in the air.
Granted, it might feel this way for me as I have an aunt and cousin in Houston, my dad (stepmom, friends and sister-in-law) lives in Florida and my husband and I live in wildfire country (currently on a Level 1 evac with a house on the market). Does the rest of the world feel this way right now? Having lived in a community that has experienced significant fires, you see people become addicted to fear like it's catastrophe porn. The news makes us long for an apocalypse and our churches guarantee one.
At the same time, human beings have never been perfect and our existence has always been unstable. The great Roman empire fell. The rise of Germany. The Russian nuclear scare of the 80's. The great San Francisco earthquake, tsunamis... Life happens. Is it our social media age that allows us to see more of it on a daily basis? I don't know. What I do know is that the way everything feels around me right now, the number of times we are clubbed in the head with a new disaster, it feels too big-- the numbers too great, to ignore. It personally has me begging the question, what are we learning from this?
What is humanity learning from this? Let that marinate....
In numerology, the year 2017 equates to a one. One is the symbol of new beginnings. This can be a very exciting time to start new things but it also means that whatever we create in this year stays with us for the next nine years- nine, being the number of completion. With so many factors happening as of late, I can't help but wonder if we're looking at everything myopically and not seeing the bigger picture.
Mother Earth has been spinning since the dawn of time. SHE has seen some things. Her own creation, dinosaurs, the building of the pyramids... She has some stories to tell. She's been around. The same goes for the oceans that receded to showcase spectacular mountains and gorges, or trees with their deep roots that plunge into the ground, hundreds of years old, THEY'VE seen some things. Us? We pathetic little humans see the span of 80+ years (if we're lucky).
I remember reading 'Crazy Horse,' a book about the war leader's legacy as an Oglala Lakota in the 19th century. In the book I learned that the Lakota's calendar was based on 13 moons throughout the year. The names of these 'months' reflected what was going on during that time of year. Names like, "The Moon of Green Grass," "The Moon When Turnips are in Blossom," "The Moon When Chokecherries are Black," or "The Moon When Deers Shed Their Antlers." I was fascinated and in awe of their connection to the land. They respected it, cherished it and took part in it. Personally, I believe they got it soooo right.
I find myself again asking for earthly wisdom. What are we supposed to learn here?
Who are we to nature? What do we think and feel about it? Is it something to be owned or purchased? Do we rule over it? Do we respect it? Or are we beginning to question our part in it all? Are we spending hours fighting various policy without any real connection to the earth? When do we become guests here? Shouldn't the earth have seniority? Shouldn't there be some humility? Shouldn't we ask for its' wisdom? It seems awfully ungracious and ignorant to not look at the bigger picture. And yet in our 80+ years, we're the rulers and decision makers. At this point, shouldn't we at least pay our respects to the wisdom of the hundred year old sea turtles? Why are the 'ants' of the world the ones to rule?
And its not just about the natural world, it's about humanity. Our political climate is a battlefield full of righteousness and vitriol. Again, the question smacks me in the face... What are we learning here?
Hours upon hours spent on Facebook and Twitter, 'fighting the fight' and 'setting the record straight,' in my experience, has not changed a single opinion. It has done nothing to progress anyone's agenda but create more division, and made us feel even more helpless and angry, righteous and indignant. How can that be a good thing?
Even more than the great chasm between us, this time has instilled in us hateful reactionary triggers set to go off on a moment's notice-- whether it's politics or which ice cream to get, we feel we are under attack all of the time-- offended, disrespected and you're going to know about it.
"NO, I'M RIGHT AND I HOPE YOU DIE CHOKING ON YOUR BLUE BUNNY, YOU MOTHERFUCKING ASSHOLE!!! GEEZ... CAN YOU BELIEVE THAT GUY? EVEN HAAGEN-DAAZ WOULD BE BETTER... FUCKER... HE'LL PROBABLY PUT CHOCOLATE SHELL ON IT... DO YOU KNOW WHAT CHOCOLATE SHELL IS MADE OF? ...WHAT A DICK... "
HE'S what's wrong with the world. Thankfully, you're on the side that's 'right' so you don't even have to feel guilty for too long blowing your top. I mean, you're not typically like that, but THAT guy? It wasa-well warranted. Not to mention, all of your friends will validate your righteousness through 'likes' as they think chocolate shell is the devil as well. It feels good to be right. A community of right people. If only all the world was as right as you are.
It's happened to all of us. We are all guilty. But tell me how this is helping anything. I see little John Connor as a young Edward Furlong, ringing a set of car keys in his hand... "Are we learning yet?" We don't always have to kill the guy to get the car. There can be other possibilities. Sometimes we can find a spare car with keys in the visor. What if nothing is well warranted? What if crazy stays crazy and we just watch it spin rather than react in the same way? Instead, we crave Judgment Day. Maybe we're a bunch of kill-fest terminators that need reprogramming.
I recently listened to a podcast about reincarnation. According to this podcast, after death you are greeted by loved ones. After a bit of 'Welcome Back Cotter'-esque celebration, there is a life evaluation. In this evaluation, you are able to see all of the decisions you've made but also--and this was the kicker-- you feel the feelings of every decision you've made. You feel the feelings of those you've effected. You see the ripple effect of your actions. Whether or not you believe in reincarnation, can you imagine what it would be like to literally feel how you've made others feel? And how it has effected your life and the world around you? YIKES.
Meditating on this question, thinking about what we are supposed to learn, I have a sneaky suspicion Baby Soul and other children will come out of our wombs scratching their heads, wide-eyed, unprogrammed asking ‘Why would you do that?’ I pray it’s a generation of children that instinctively know it’s about raising our vibration. I hope we can pause a second to this about this…
I don’t have answers but I think questions are a great start… What do I need to learn? Do I feel grounded? What does that look like in everyday life? Am I meditating or making time to reflect? Am I living in gratitude? How am I speaking to those around me? Or online? Do I judge people I don’t understand? When have I been shown kindness or compassion? How did it make me feel? Do I live in fear? Where does it come from? How am I showing respect for the earth? Am I seeking wisdom? Why does it feel good to ‘be right?’ Am I stuck in a lifetime of circumstances that have happened to me or have I done the courageous work of healing those hurts? What would it feel like to be free of those burdens? To forgive?
It is a blessed and harsh reality that I truly have no control over what happens in the next few weeks. But what I can do is ask myself the following: How can I raise my own vibration? What can I bring to the table as a guest here on earth? How does my life effect the world?